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Tuesday, July 27th, 2004
2:09 pm	The Truth Within the confines of my mind today I've come to the conclusion I shall no long take crap from mindless infidels that walk on this planet daily. People are eager to listen to what they know but fear what they don't. Most of them are being lied to by those that claim to love: either them or not. Perhaps you don't quite grasp the meaning of this post. But you know who you are, to those who think they know Jesus. I met Jesus today; I met God today; and everything I perceived to be truth is thus proven. Everyday I remain sober I find myself slipping more into a state of utter misanthropy. And by remaining sober I don't necessarily imply the use of drugs and/or other forms that will, for lack of better terms, "fuck you up." My misanthropy is the result of many occurrences that have gone on since November, the dealing with so-called friends that don't truly understand yet blindly love me. Those who want something more but still don't understand anything will be more. My misanthropy is the result of those who attempt to judge me and/or my relationships with another human being. (You know who you are) And, at this particular moment in time, my anger is from one who has expressed great jealousy of me, and by doing so, has fallen from grace from his best friend. Ironically, he now is asking for those to apologize to him. So convenient to find CHRIST after he has been outed for the thief and fraud he was. JESUS is nothing more then a tool used for the common person to get out of trouble. God is nothing more then a tool implored by the Government to keep it's citizens under controls. At this stage in humanity, we are not ready to move fast such a festering institution. Now the truth will show herself, by force or choice. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
1:43 am	remember folks. livejournal is just the front. my real writings are on my deadjournal version. www.deadjournal.com/~halo14fragile (Comment on this)
Friday, November 14th, 2003
4:26 am	free enneagram test (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 9th, 2003
9:22 pm	Well for so long I haven't used this thing and have decided to actually use it as it's purpose and not just random song lyrics. So let me start by saying MY FATHER IS ON THE VERGE OF UBER FIGHT. I've been pretty dormant w/ fighting with him for about 4 months now and i'm fucked fed up with the shit him and my step mom have to say about my siblings. My step mom needs to get the fucken rat out of her cunt and get over her fucken attitude before I go off on her. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 16th, 2003
9:26 pm	As if under massive, the wide eyed sleepers fall into mass graves. the'll feel safer in the dirt. Their opinions won't be heard, if asked could YOU decide what any MAN IS WORTH? :mushroomhead: (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 17th, 2003
12:37 pm	you're a MUTHAFUCKN pice of shit an you'll amount to nothing Current Music: Faith and the Muse - Vervain (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 27th, 2003
11:48 pm	in the back off the side and far away is a place where I hide, where I stay, tried to say tried to ask i needed too all alone, by myself where were you? how could i ever think it's funny how everything you swore would never change is different now, just like you would always say we'll make it through then my head fell apart and where were you? how could i ever think it's funny how everything you swore it wouldn't change is different now, like you said, you and me, make it through, didn't quite, fell apart, where the fuck were you? ~nin (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 22nd, 2003
10:44 pm	you let me feel your danger (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 12th, 2003
5:13 pm	SOME OF THEM WANT TO BE ABUSED (1 Comment |Comment on this)
4:25 pm	the rabbits just a monkey in disguise... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 9th, 2003
10:59 pm	Dear Night Dozzlebolts, I captured a star tonite. I hid it in my back pocket and will carry it around with me. It scorches me thought. Wants to breathe and hang with it's friends in the sky.... It's old though. I'll have to let it go. I don't keep my light that long, all light escapes fades when you close your eyes... all light fades. I captured a star today. But it ran away... it faded into the moon's eclipse... along with the face. But this lock you have created does have a key.... Dear Night Dozzlebolts, Dear Night. (Comment on this)
10:19 pm	My goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Vivacious Kool. What's yours? Powered by Rum and Monkey. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 8th, 2003
9:45 pm	shoot myself to love you if i loved myself i'd be shooting you (Comment on this)
Monday, July 7th, 2003
8:42 pm	don't turn away from me, I need you to hold on too, don't turn away from me, i need someone to hold on too. (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 6th, 2003
5:59 pm	without you, without you everything falls apart without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces without you, without you everything falls apart nine inch nails (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 3rd, 2003
9:16 pm	I AM THE PERFECT DRUG! (Comment on this)
9:00 pm	Perfect Drug, The by nine inch nails I got my head, but my head is unraveling Can't keep control, can't keep track of where it's traveling I got my heart but my heart is no good And you're the only one that's understood I come along but I don't know where you're taking me I shouldn't go but you're reaching, dragging, shaking me Turn off the sun, pull the stars from the sky The more I give to you, the more I die And I want you And I want you And I want you And I want you You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug, the perfect drug You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug, the perfect drug You make me hard, when I'm all soft inside I see the truth, when I'm all stupid eyed The arrow goes straight through my heart Without you everything just falls apart My blood wants to say hello to you My feelings want to get inside of you My soul is so afraid to realize Every little word is a lack of me And I want you And I want you And I want you And I want you You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug, the perfect drug You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug, the perfect drug You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug, the perfect drug You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug, the perfect drug You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug, the perfect drug You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug, the perfect drug You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug, the perfect drug You are the perfect drug, the perfect drug, the perfect drug You are the perfect drug, the drug, the perfect drug Take me, if you want Take me, if you want Take me, if you want Take me, if you want Without you, without you everything falls apart Without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces Without you, without you everything falls apart Without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces It's not as much fun to pick up the pieces It's not as much fun to pick up the pieces Without you, without you everything falls apart Without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 2nd, 2003
6:38 pm	Honour [September 1995] Passive fields. January two thousand and twelve. A nation that stands alone. Cold voices, faces pale, gathered unto their judgement day. Such words remain unspoken. Such pride remains unbroken. Just mothers to stand in vain and cry. Tears and medals in the rain. Shall I recall when justice did prevail? No reason to be found why reason did fail. The all clear resounding. The way was clear to rebuild this land. Shall I call on you to guide me well, to see our hopes and dreams fulfilled? On this day of our ascension. Stand your ground this is what we are fighting for. For our spirit and laws and ways. Cry havoc and let slip the dogs of war. For heaven or hell we shall not wait. Shall I think of honour as lies or lament it's aged slow demise? Shall I stand as a total stranger/cold reminder on this day in this stone chamber? The all clear resounding. The way was clear to rebuild this land. Shall I call on you to guide me well. To see our hopes and dreams fulfilled. On this day of our ascension, on this day we praise the fallen. Stand your ground this is what we are fighting for. For our spirit and laws and ways. Cry havoc and let slip the dogs of war. For heaven or hell we shall not wait. Shall I think of honour as lies or lament it's aged slow demise? Shall I stand as a total stranger/cold reminder on this day in this stone chamber?. ? VNV Nation Current Mood: whatever mode Current Music: vnv nation - honour 2003 demo (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 1st, 2003
7:53 pm	my mouth was a crib and it was growing lies i didn't know what love was on that day. my hearts a tiny blood clot I picked at it, it never heals it never goes away. burn all the good things in the eden's eye, we where to dumb to run dead to die. this was never my world, you took the angel away, i killed myself to make everybody pay. i would've told her then, she was the only thing, that i could 'love' in this dying world. but the simple word of 'love' itself, already died and gone away. this was never my world you took the angel away i killed myself to make everybody pay her hearts a bloodstained egg we didn't handle with care, it's broken and bleeding, and we can never repair. "Coma Black" ~Marilyn Manson Current Mood: fucked up Current Music: marilyn manson - coma black (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 29th, 2003
9:41 pm	SEE YOU IN HELL (Comment on this)